Me

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Self conscious attention seeker.

You know when men say that women are complicated and we sigh and say something like "dont be stupid were easy to keep happy, it's really not hard". Well stay with me a moment ladies. I disagree. I am ridiculously complicated. I am a person so full of conflicting thoughts and I actually think I've got about 20 different sides to me, seriously, James McAvoy in split has a rival. And I suddenly come out with new characters all the time. I am a walking paradox. I cannot make a decision so dont ever ask me what takeaway I want, where to go, what to wear, which restaurant to eat in. I dont know ok. I am also very self conscious and overly sensitive. I get the statement all the tine; "you're am escort you have to be confident." Well let me tell you this, I am not. Its all an act. Just had to get that off my chest. I walk into a room and at that point when I meet a person for the first time that I decide who I am going to be that evening. Dont knock it until you've tried it. It got me through my prison sentence. I acted my way through it. Give it a go.  It might just work

Changing and growing

This is probably most definitely not a topic that has a place in a book, nor does it warrant a blog post dedicated to it. However, I've never been one to follow the rules, as you will probably know by now; it's weird because I'm writing this before I've ever had anything that I've written published. I'm making a huge assumption that you, mister or missus, (was gonna leave it at mister but these days I'd be called sexist if I didn't mention the misters female counterpart-that's another blog post entirely by the way-bet you can't wait!!)
When I was younger I had a dream life planned out for my elder self (oooooh younger self if you could see me now). I can't remember how much younger because for some reason I can't remember a lot of detail from when I was a proper youngster but we're talking teen years here. I was sex and the city crazy, which let's face it is not uncommon for a teenage girl trying to find her way in the world and navigate those awful 16-18 year old years. Every girl has done the whole "which satc character are you??" Theres definitely one of those quiz things on Facebook that you can do to find out which cartoon/disney villain/marvel character you are for this too. Anyway, I was Carrie. I loved her. I'm not going to go in to detail about why because you know what she's like and how she looks. Its CARRIE BRADSHAW.
New York
Paris
Writer for magazine like cosmopolitan
travel writer as well. Some huge mag like national geographic.
Now I've changed. I want to make a difference in the world. Not even on a big scale just one person would suffice. But I want to touch someone and maybe change the course of their life for the better.
Who'd touched me.
Lesbians girl in detox. Toni from detox.
People who touch our lives and make an imprint on it. These are not people we remember or stick out. I'm talking about special people. Special to you anyway. And that's what I want to be I guess. Special to someone. I'm not talking earth shatteringly changing. It might be one little decision which in the long run is like dominoes and makes a significant difference. Drop in the ocean. Lol.